Tuesday, December 15, 2009

You are Not Alone...Happy Holidays

I dont have much family and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. I will be embracing the joy that my 5 year old son Eurie brings me. Just wanna let you know that although you may feel lonely or insignificant around this time, there's always something you can embrace. These holidays are not about fancy gifts or quantity. #1 It's a celebration of our Lord and Saviors birthday. #2 Embrace yourself...you don't need any pats on the back. If you're feeling lonely...here's a hug from me...xoxoxoxoxo

Even if you don't feel the love...spread love anyhow. "What you respond to in another, you strengthen in yourself" ~Keep Loving


Happy Holidays...Mwah





Have a Holly Jolly Christmas

Sunday, December 13, 2009

No One Cares About Your Journey, They're More Interested In Your Destination

This year's long journey evolving in Chicago hasn't been easy. Out of all of the struggles and sacrifices that I've made, May 7th, 2009 was a pivotal moment for me and it confirmed that all of my growing pains has been worthwhile. Just to rewind before May 7th; The purpose of my journey right now is to fulfill my life's pursuit which is to empower my peers through the platform of entertainment. I'm a vessel who is dying to see my people live and I will fight until my last breath to make sure that that becomes a reality. I asked myself two years ago, "If i knew I couldn't fail, what would I do?" Such a powerful question yet a simple thought has led me to this very moment even while I'm typing this message. Anyhow(because I can go on and on..lol), my dreams are to have my own segment with Oprah Radio which is one of the reasons that I moved to Chicago.

With just a passion and not many resources or plans for that matter, I moved to Chicago in pursuit of my happiness. Not really sure exactly what I wanted to do at that moment but just knowing that I wanted to work with Oprah. I trusted that I would figure out exactly what it is that I wanted. Sometimes you just have to make the move first and then figure out the next step once you've made that move.(And if you're reading this, you know deep in your gut what "that move is". Stop questioning yourself, pick up your mat and walk. Sidenote: If you're waiting until everything is just right, you will not do much of anything.

2 years ago every morning around 4am, I would go to Harpo Studios and just sit in my car and wait. What was I waiting for? Good question. I would figure it out once "it" was happening. I would wait for Oprah and as I was waiting, I would pray and write in my journal. To make a long story short, I did this until I got a result. Did I ever meet her? No but it taught powerful lessons. I was at Harpo Studios so much that the head of security knew me and until this very day I'm sure he could point me out in a line up lol. Anyhow, REJECTION was an understatement!!! There would be moments when I would wait in the lines for hours and hours at a time and think I would get in and REJECTION would always meet me at the door. "Be sure that another's rejection will never make you reject yourself", and with this statement in mind, I kept pushing.

Earlier this year I remember crying out and praying to God that I just get in that studio somehow some way before the season ended. Rejection was my only friend at Harpo Studios until finally I received a call inviting me to one of Oprah's tapings. Not only was I invited to a taping but this particular day and this particular audience was invited to 2 tapings!!!! OMG RIGHT?!?!?!? (God sees, God knows, and God rewards) But wait there's more!!! Not only was I invited to 2 shows, I was unexpectedly on 1 out of 3 of the tapings that day.And did I mention IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF THE SEASON!! HELLO??? ARE YOU THERE!!! UH HUH.. The show that I was on was about Skyping and I had like this special entry to the show and they gave me a Oprah shirt!!! Lol.

SPEEDING UP
I'm in the audience and at this point I couldn't even concentrate. The shows were great but I could care less about the shows lol. All I was thinking about was "How in the hell am I gonna talk with Oprah Winfrey?" So i'm plotting, planning, sweating perfusively, head pounding. And all I could do at the the end of the show(actually until this day I dont think that it was me that did this) but, I stood up and blurted out "Excuse me, life is too short, I have to say this" then I went into the whole spill about my life, journey, and passion and dreams. I ranted about how hard it was to get to this point and I expressed so greatly what it is that I wanted the outcome of this speech to be. All of what I been through up at that point??? I just wanted her to know that I exist.

Gracious Ms. Oprah Winfrey herself was as calm as she could be. She said to me, "ok so what exactly is it that you wanna do? Because everyone has dreams, that isn't enough?" She never ever discouraged me, in fact she gave me hope and nourished my visions. She did however tell me that she had some people for me and she would connect me to them. In fact I'm still waiting for that call!!! (I WILL NEVER CHANGE MY #) She told me exactly what she was looking for and I got it. It all started to make sense to me!! It will happen sooner than later.

I went to her with just a passion and a dream. For some strange reason, I thought that all of my struggles and sacrifices should be rewarded(in fact they were with that moment alone, it was all worth it) Im thinking, if she could give everybody cars I'm sure she can help lil ol me. lol. And I'm not telling you this story to impress you but to impress upon you that "HAVING A DREAM ALONE ISN'T ENOUGH!!!" We all have dreams. A bum on the streets has dreams. Having a dream is about 20 % of the battle. You need a plan. More importantly, you need to work that plan.

PEOPLE ARE NOT CONCERNED WITH YOUR JOURNEY BUT YOUR DESTINATION!!! Everyone has a story and its human nature to desire greatness. However comma, don't always be quick to talk about what you're going through but to where you're headed and make that HAPPE.n(and yes i spelled happen like that for a reason)

Since then, I've been putting my dreams and faith into works and on May 7, 2009 EmbraceLifeRadio.com was birthed!!! I will be updating you soon about my online radio talk show. Embrace Life with Ambition coming to an hEARt near you!!!



May 7, 2009 EmbraceLifeRadio.com was Born.......

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

A Fresh Start





One day I woke up and I felt suffocated!!! I couldn't breathe or think and I felt as if the walls were caving in on me. I needed to be freed. Freed from bondage. Freed from negativity. I desperately needed to recenter myself and have clarity. There's so much going on in my life right now the last thing I needed to worry about was my appearance. I needed to focus on me...all of me.

So I made a conscious decision to diminish all of the noise that somehow tried to distract me from focusing on the now...the present...ME, and I shaved it all of.

And. Now. I. Am. Free

Thursday, October 15, 2009

QUICK UPDATE...STATUS UPDATE..LOL

I JUST WANNA CATCH YOU GUYS UP FROM THE LAST EIGHT MONTHS TO NOW IN THREE SENTENCES...LOL. A LOT HAS HAPPENED THIS YEAR AND I AM VERY THANKFUL. I'm STARTING MY ONLINE BLOG RADIO CALLED "EmbraceLifeRadio.com" "EMBRACE LIFE WITH AMBITION!!!" THE LAUNCH DATE IS SET FOR JANUARY 13, 2010 @ 9pm eastern time. I may post the presentation for the show. For so long I have been debating if I really wanna share what my true dreams are...I came to the conclusion..what God has for me is for me. And so w that being said I'm going to start opening up more about my life. Let's see..oh I was able to speak w Oprah this year and share my vision with her. May 7th to b exact. Of course she looked at me like I has 7 Eyes staring back at her. In all actuality, she had every right to think I was crazy..lol. But I am. Crazy enough to believe that my dreams will come true. I will share the Oprah story more in depth soon. Oh..its funny how some things work. I met someone that I would consider a closer friend on Chicago. Guess how I met her.. Through this blog!!!! Yep..she left a comment and subscribed and we started talking and been good friends every since. Wow..I don't believe in coincidences either. She's a good person and has helped me w my vision(in which I will reveal more soon). But I'm grateful and I just wanna let you guys know that I promise I am going to start updating on the regular. I. Promise. I met someone...a loser. Ugh..I have so much to tell you guys. Coming soon

Monday, August 3, 2009

DIVE INTO THE UNKOWN

The world is moving so rapidly and it's beginning to take a strong hold on her. She's vibrant, strong, very courageous, ambitious, classy, sassy, young, and extremely wise. Yet, alone and her vision starts to fade because she's fatigued by the madness of the world's standards and expectations. Patiently awaiting for her blessings, you can see the strain in her spirit. Assocation is everything and I have yet to see her around people who can water her soul and help it flourish.

By default, her thoughts shifts to "Maybe I'm not destined for greatness", "I'm tired of this goody goody, where is it getting me"!!! Slowly, I can see her thoughts shifting to the same medicore thoughts as her surroundings.

So one day she gives in to temptation and takes to what seems to be a "Prestigious" lawyer who owns his own firm(typical, married man with children) living the American Dream, oh don't forget about the dog and white picket fence......and purposely without hesitation, takes him up on his "offer"!!!! His offer wasn't much, he put a label and a price on what he felt she was worth, in exchange for guilty pleasures. Feeling as if this is the path that was chosen for her and beginning to feel so hopeless because her belief system is diminishing. She takes this man up on his offer and after a few cocktails and a meal, she goes to his luxurious firm, enters his office and boy was this office immaculate!!!!!

So as he tries to force himself on her w/o hesistation, she's a little nervous because this is sooooo unlike her. You would think this being her first time at this that he would take it easy on her? But uh....not really, we already know people could care less about you!!! So she was a little nervous as he was trying to have his way with her. Before they began......she said, "I'm a liitle nervous, this is my first time". He walks over to her and frustratingly sits down, look her deep in the eyes, and says "WELL BABY....YOU JUST HAVE TO DIVE IN".

She immediately took it as a sign from God and ran out of his office!!!!

You see, it takes the same amount of energy and effort to do something; rather it's negative or positive. So if you're going to do something, why not let it be doing something with meaning and purpose? YOU JUST HAVE TO DIVE IN!!!! Even if you don't have the experience, confidence, support, the proper associates; it doesn't matter!!! IF you know your calling and your purpose.........DIVE IN!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

HE SHALL PROVIDE


So here's a little update on what's going on in my life.

As I mentioned before, I moved here not knowing a single soul, just trusting that God will provide. Well, I'm here to tell you that He will do just what He said He would do. He selects a particular person or guardian angel who will look after you. Since attending this helpless program that I was forced to go to so my son could go to school, I have met an angel on earth.

The first day I met this lady, she sat me in a room and closed the door, pulled her bible out and asked me, "What do you need?" I was apalled, huh, what do I need? IDK. She said anything, anything at all. She pulled $40 out and gave it to me, gave me her bible and started reading. I was totally blown away because it's so hard to find people who really care these days. She has taken my son in, we go to her house every Sunday to enjoy her delicious Big Mama soul food dinners. God is truly amazing.


My grandmother just died, May 5, 2008 and this lady has truly stepped in and taken on the grandmotherly role. She has truly been a blessing to my life. On my Grandmother's account, I want to do all of things for her that I couldnt do for my grandmother. I WILL RETIRE HER!!!

So.....things are moving along. Just wanted to let you know, believe in Him. He shall provide your needs. I came here not knowing a soul and He is replacing people in my life. Substiting the people who are no good for me for people who are not only good and loving but protecting me and making sure I succeed.

So I guess the helpless program wasn't so helpless afterall. Although it really didn't make much sense in the beginning, everything happens for a reason. It's all clear to me now and this experience has taught me to trust in Him even more.

"If He does it for lil ol me, TRUST me, He can and will do it for you. Only if you beLIeVe."


The NEW FAMILIA

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Leave Them Where They Are.......RUN!!!!!

In life you have to be a soldier. No one said is was going to be easy but if you push hard enough it will be worth it. The hardest thing in life is to let go of the ones you love. Rather it's a death or an end to the relationship.

It really tears me up inside that I let a friend go that I truly care for. We've been friends for quite some time. But at the end of the day, it is what it is. Some people like to stay exactly where they are. Even if they say one thing. Don't listen to what they say, watch what they do. Just because you love someone doesn't mean that they have to be a part of your everyday life. Especially if they have no vision and play the victim, look for excuses and not results. Let them go. If you want to grow, you have to let go.

Yes it hurts!!! No it's not easy! Stop putting your trust in man and put your trust in God. He will send you what you need. He has been replacing people in my life and He can do the same for you. So just let it go. Keep pushing. Pain don't last always.

~Choose Life
"If you can't change your friends, change your friends"

Friday, February 27, 2009

EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE FAILING

Soooo.......sometimes in life you have to take a few steps backward(so it seems) to take a leap forward. Apparently, the system is really set up for your destruction!!!! It's really build for you to fail, flat on your face. They say, "Only the strong will survive", and I'm here to tell you, it's cliche` yet so true.

This system in Chicago is very crazy. You cannot get any support unless you're damn near homeless!! Even if you are homeless you can't get support these days. Every school for my son in my juridstiction is filled. Ok, so in order to get my son in school and not kill myself in tuition, I have to be a public aid recipient(which is unbelievable) but IT IS WHAT IT IS.

It's been a long journey for me thus far, but it's building me up. I never look at an obstacle like i'm losing, even when it's foggy and i dont understand it. I know that it's there to build me. 1) Because I know all things work together for your greater good. 2) I refuse to lose. I've made a choice to pursue my dreams, which means sacrifice is neccessary.Sacrifice means "Giving up something good for something better. I choose to win. Being in a city where I haven't really met anyone that I can count on for support, I've been really forced to go through and grow through things. Sooooo........no babysitter, no schooling for my son(as of yet), no support system(as of yet); I've decided to take my son to my interviews with me. Lol, its been a journey but I'm embracing it all. Some kicked me to the curb, some embraced me. I made a choice and next my excuses, whatever it takes, by all means necessary.

It's kind of crazy yet funny because I actually can't believe that I'm doing this myself. The first line that I say when I'm being interviewed is, "Have you ever seen Pursuit of HappIness? Well that movie has been my inspiration and has giving me the courage to propel.(just as confident as can be)lol. This is why my son has joined us today!!!" I'm really promising myself not to live by excuses, even if I look crazy on the exterior. Excuses are the number 1 reason for failure.




So whatever it takes. I've been at this ridiculous, helpless program to get my son enrolled in school. I've learned a lot of valuable lessons along the way. It has been a very humbling experience. I see that some people really just need the help and they've been constantly overlooked. They need you to choose life and help them find a way. There are honest people out here who's backs are just against the wall, but the moment you give them a chance, they will exceed far beyond what "preconceived judgements" that people have.(I'm guilty of it as well)

I just thank God that I'm chosen to be in the industry that I'm in, which only consists of me helping the next person get better. So my advice is to choose life and keep pushing even if it seems crazy. You're a lot stronger than you think you are and someone is waiting for who you are to become. :)

Interveiwing for perserverance, if you have a testimony email me.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Don't let a person's lack of personal development become your personal issue

about 90% of the people that we encounter on a daily basis doesn't believe in themselves. Most people are just not happy with themselves. My question is if most folk aren't happy with themselves and their own lives, what make you think that they would be happy for yours? Don't expect for anyone to pat you on your back and say, "job well done". Or for someone to give you praise(not to say that its a bad thing, because we all need encouragement) just don't become dependent on praises and make sure that YOU embrace your journey first!!! You don't have to go and runteldat as soon as something goes down(good or bad)! Lol. You take it all in and be proud of yourself, because only you can be the best at being you. Its so sad to say, but..... Your own family sometimes don't even want to see you happy. Don't let anyone steal your joy and take your victory away from you. If you're happy with being you, continue to be you. Other than that keep pushing and remember to CHOOSE LIFE x)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Welcome Dreamers

Rewind..... August 5 2007, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling suffocated!!! I could no longer live another day of life like this; in a box, with dreams and aspirations and no outlet to pursue, everyone around me living mediocre lives and content in their fansy ruts!!! Everyone around me getting killed or killing themselves with their thoughts, including myself!!! So that night I prayed(actually screamed out,broken hearted to my God). I cried like a baby and that night my life changed. God told me to go. As unprepared as I was, August 24, 2007, I took everything that was important to me, packed my car and left AND I NEVER looked back. I left everything, furniture, tv's, washer, dryer, etc.... I just left. I knew that if I didn't do it at that exact moment, it wouldve never happened. Have you ever told yourself you wanted to do something and never got around to it? Baby the timing will never be perfect, just do it. I don't care what the circumstance, GO..... NOW!!! Chasing my dreams!!! So here I am, in Chicago Illinois with a dollar and a dream, full of desire, passion, and willingness to learn. I'm here, not knowing a soul, single parent, not knowing my surroundings. Just an adventurous heart and a vision. Just Me, God, and my son, Eurie(he's my rock). Anyhow, this blog is not for your entertainment. It's only for those who are working on getting to the next level. Its for those who are deadly serious about not taking life for granted and who are chasing some things in life. Its for those who has that burning desire in their gut that says, "There has to be something better for me"!!! For those who know the potential is there but sometimes feel like there's no way out. Who feels like no one understands! Well if that is you.....WELCOME and let's get it!!! My first question to you is, if you knew you couldn't fail who would you be? Not what would you do but who would you become? What characteristics would you possess?