Friday, February 27, 2009

EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE FAILING

Soooo.......sometimes in life you have to take a few steps backward(so it seems) to take a leap forward. Apparently, the system is really set up for your destruction!!!! It's really build for you to fail, flat on your face. They say, "Only the strong will survive", and I'm here to tell you, it's cliche` yet so true.

This system in Chicago is very crazy. You cannot get any support unless you're damn near homeless!! Even if you are homeless you can't get support these days. Every school for my son in my juridstiction is filled. Ok, so in order to get my son in school and not kill myself in tuition, I have to be a public aid recipient(which is unbelievable) but IT IS WHAT IT IS.

It's been a long journey for me thus far, but it's building me up. I never look at an obstacle like i'm losing, even when it's foggy and i dont understand it. I know that it's there to build me. 1) Because I know all things work together for your greater good. 2) I refuse to lose. I've made a choice to pursue my dreams, which means sacrifice is neccessary.Sacrifice means "Giving up something good for something better. I choose to win. Being in a city where I haven't really met anyone that I can count on for support, I've been really forced to go through and grow through things. Sooooo........no babysitter, no schooling for my son(as of yet), no support system(as of yet); I've decided to take my son to my interviews with me. Lol, its been a journey but I'm embracing it all. Some kicked me to the curb, some embraced me. I made a choice and next my excuses, whatever it takes, by all means necessary.

It's kind of crazy yet funny because I actually can't believe that I'm doing this myself. The first line that I say when I'm being interviewed is, "Have you ever seen Pursuit of HappIness? Well that movie has been my inspiration and has giving me the courage to propel.(just as confident as can be)lol. This is why my son has joined us today!!!" I'm really promising myself not to live by excuses, even if I look crazy on the exterior. Excuses are the number 1 reason for failure.




So whatever it takes. I've been at this ridiculous, helpless program to get my son enrolled in school. I've learned a lot of valuable lessons along the way. It has been a very humbling experience. I see that some people really just need the help and they've been constantly overlooked. They need you to choose life and help them find a way. There are honest people out here who's backs are just against the wall, but the moment you give them a chance, they will exceed far beyond what "preconceived judgements" that people have.(I'm guilty of it as well)

I just thank God that I'm chosen to be in the industry that I'm in, which only consists of me helping the next person get better. So my advice is to choose life and keep pushing even if it seems crazy. You're a lot stronger than you think you are and someone is waiting for who you are to become. :)

Interveiwing for perserverance, if you have a testimony email me.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Don't let a person's lack of personal development become your personal issue

about 90% of the people that we encounter on a daily basis doesn't believe in themselves. Most people are just not happy with themselves. My question is if most folk aren't happy with themselves and their own lives, what make you think that they would be happy for yours? Don't expect for anyone to pat you on your back and say, "job well done". Or for someone to give you praise(not to say that its a bad thing, because we all need encouragement) just don't become dependent on praises and make sure that YOU embrace your journey first!!! You don't have to go and runteldat as soon as something goes down(good or bad)! Lol. You take it all in and be proud of yourself, because only you can be the best at being you. Its so sad to say, but..... Your own family sometimes don't even want to see you happy. Don't let anyone steal your joy and take your victory away from you. If you're happy with being you, continue to be you. Other than that keep pushing and remember to CHOOSE LIFE x)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Welcome Dreamers

Rewind..... August 5 2007, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling suffocated!!! I could no longer live another day of life like this; in a box, with dreams and aspirations and no outlet to pursue, everyone around me living mediocre lives and content in their fansy ruts!!! Everyone around me getting killed or killing themselves with their thoughts, including myself!!! So that night I prayed(actually screamed out,broken hearted to my God). I cried like a baby and that night my life changed. God told me to go. As unprepared as I was, August 24, 2007, I took everything that was important to me, packed my car and left AND I NEVER looked back. I left everything, furniture, tv's, washer, dryer, etc.... I just left. I knew that if I didn't do it at that exact moment, it wouldve never happened. Have you ever told yourself you wanted to do something and never got around to it? Baby the timing will never be perfect, just do it. I don't care what the circumstance, GO..... NOW!!! Chasing my dreams!!! So here I am, in Chicago Illinois with a dollar and a dream, full of desire, passion, and willingness to learn. I'm here, not knowing a soul, single parent, not knowing my surroundings. Just an adventurous heart and a vision. Just Me, God, and my son, Eurie(he's my rock). Anyhow, this blog is not for your entertainment. It's only for those who are working on getting to the next level. Its for those who are deadly serious about not taking life for granted and who are chasing some things in life. Its for those who has that burning desire in their gut that says, "There has to be something better for me"!!! For those who know the potential is there but sometimes feel like there's no way out. Who feels like no one understands! Well if that is you.....WELCOME and let's get it!!! My first question to you is, if you knew you couldn't fail who would you be? Not what would you do but who would you become? What characteristics would you possess?